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Cramming Insurance. Have no clue what to expect with that. I hope he doesn't expect 50 pages per question. Moisturizing my cuticles. Burt's Bees Lemon Butter Cuticle Creme. Smells lemony. Going to try the new nail polish. 320 Rapid Ruby. I got it because it reminded me of blood. Should probably use a base coat.

Random songs listened to:
The Show by Lenka
Silence by Olivia Broadfiled
Brain Stew by Greenday
Right Angles by The Paper Raincoat (I so want their cds but can't finf them!)
Fingerprints by Katy Perry


One exam away from seeing the stars at night, having real food fixed for me, and reading books that are fun.

Pudding for Brains

"Do not believe that he who seeks to comfort you lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life has much difficulty... Were it otherwise he would never have been able to find those words." ~Rainer Maria Rilke (1875 - 1926)

So the Wills exam was today. It. Was. Bad.
Afterwards, I saw some classmates' comments about the exam on fb. I remembered this quote. Sometimes when I look around, I just see a bunch of people who seem to be breezing through while I struggle. There's a part of me that realizes that not everyone is perfect, but there is also a part that feels like they are while I'm not. Anyway, it's good to take a step back sometimes and realize that other people have problems too, you're not the only one who is confused, and while some people may be better than you at some things, you're better than they are at others.

Just breathe.

signs

When the disire to go over and throttle someone becomes this strong, I think it's time to change scenery.

How Inconvenient

I have too much to take in/learn/memorize/understand/whatever with Wills. For some reason, when I get too wigged out/ anxious about something most of the time I react by getting sleepy. Which of course is NOT helpful. Boo.

quick update

Going to be very vague b/c there are a lot of things here I don't really want to share too publicly and some things I'm just not at a point where I can really discuss them.

So last week was the long, horrible week from Hell. TG break was nice but not enough plain relaxing like I needed. Then Monday I had a big presentation type thing to do. When I got back to the apt. there was horrible news. The rest of the week was then spent trying to keep it together, not break down in class, and work on final trial. I didn't really sleep last week. The quiet before going to sleep basically made me think and upset me so I couldn't sleep and I didn't want to have that time for my mind to wander. I really don't do well on low sleep. Long story shortened, everything from the week just hit me like a ton of bricks in the middle of the trial. It was a horrible horrible plane crash that would have been painful to watch even if you had no clue what was going on. I just couldn't concentrate, couldn't care, could barely keep it together so I didn't just sit on the floor and cry. Made it to the end and then the car before I broke down.

Anyhoo, that was then. It happened, I can't change it, I need to move on and focus on the upcoming exams.

There's so much more, but not going to make the blog.