quick update

Going to be very vague b/c there are a lot of things here I don't really want to share too publicly and some things I'm just not at a point where I can really discuss them.

So last week was the long, horrible week from Hell. TG break was nice but not enough plain relaxing like I needed. Then Monday I had a big presentation type thing to do. When I got back to the apt. there was horrible news. The rest of the week was then spent trying to keep it together, not break down in class, and work on final trial. I didn't really sleep last week. The quiet before going to sleep basically made me think and upset me so I couldn't sleep and I didn't want to have that time for my mind to wander. I really don't do well on low sleep. Long story shortened, everything from the week just hit me like a ton of bricks in the middle of the trial. It was a horrible horrible plane crash that would have been painful to watch even if you had no clue what was going on. I just couldn't concentrate, couldn't care, could barely keep it together so I didn't just sit on the floor and cry. Made it to the end and then the car before I broke down.

Anyhoo, that was then. It happened, I can't change it, I need to move on and focus on the upcoming exams.

There's so much more, but not going to make the blog.